Showing posts with label bethany. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bethany. Show all posts

And the beat goes on...

>> Sunday, May 15, 2011

Y'all know that I'm not great about blogging anymore. There was a request for an update, and quite frankly I was tired of seeing "Bad Season" when I left blog comments for others. So a mini-update, kind of. It's late, so it will be short.


Honestly, that "Bad Season" has continued and gotten more and more complicated. I'm unsure if I should ride out the storm or grab my girls' hands (and somehow a bunch of paws) and jump ship. It's a debate in my mind daily.

I try to keep all the anger and ugliness on the down low. But like I've mentioned the girls are observant and there's no keeping secrets from them. Plus their lives have changed a bit. It's been a tough adjustment for them, but they are doing well.

When I see them my goal is communication...how was their day? How are their friends? We talk a little about boys (yikes!). Most of all I make sure to tell them I love them as many times as I can. Oh and laughing, the day is a success if we laugh. Let me tell you that it's not always as easy as it seems when you have a preteen going through life's changes. She knows what is happening. But some of the changes are in the mind, the way she thinks and feels, it's hard to prepare for that. We manage though. Bethany is a little chatter-box with a sensitive laugh button. Man that girl is funny! Kelley is more mature, so the girly-giggles aren't as freely flowing as they used to be. She does have a great sense of humor though, there is definitely laughter. Just the way I love it.

Our family does have *big* changes coming soon. Changes that are *good* and that remind us how very *blessed* we are. I'll be sharing that soon, with lots of blogging to follow I'm sure, during an upcoming "Good Season"!

First we need to get through the next 3 1/2 weeks left of school. I think that's all that's left. I can't hardly believe it, 4th grade and 6th grade are so close to being over and out!



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Letting my baby fly...

>> Saturday, May 22, 2010

Last night Bethany went to her first sleepover without Kelley.

They've had sleepovers before together and close to home. This time Bethany was on her own and going to be in another town.

I was a bit a nervous.

Bethany was more than a bit excited! She had her bag packed and was waiting for her friend when I snapped this with my phone through the window.



She's home now-safe and sound. Glad she had a great time and a chance to spread her wings without her big sister watching over her!

They grow up so fast don't they?

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Remembering the sweetness...

>> Friday, May 7, 2010

they are worth it all!

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my tale of hair, baldness and hair again...

>> Wednesday, February 10, 2010

i had recently attempted to leave a blog comment for someone who has battled cancer and in the process lost her hair, spent time being bald and now has come full circle back to having hair. my comment ended up too long to be accepted and i realized that it was actually a blog and caring bridge post in the making. in the past i have tried to keep my cancer related posts on my caring bridge page where it's a bit more appropriate. for some reason though, i really felt like i should share it here as well. i have been sharing bits of my experience here more often. if it is becoming unfitting or uncomfortable to you all, please let me know. cancer is an awful subject. one that does need to be talked about. this may not be the place and i understand that. if you would prefer that i keep it more to my caring bridge page, please let me know.

it may seem odd or even vain and inappropriate to some, that when faced with a serious illness and not knowing if you are going to live or die, that hair would be on the radar at all. let alone be a big deal at that time. maybe to others it isn't or wouldn't be. as i look back and even as i think about it now, it was a big deal to me. now i didn't carry on about it a lot, in fact i tried to be accepting and brave. there were times though that i lost that calm demeanor. after all, i am a girl.

not quite three years ago i was faced with the fact that i was going to lose my hair to chemotherapy. i knew it, and that it was unavoidable. i was prepared. mr. h and i picked out various head coverings and even a wig while i still had my hair. i was even able to laugh about it at times with my family and friends. they were all (and still are) very supportive of me. i was ready for it. or so i thought.

the day my hair started to really fall out, as in handfuls, i cried. i thought i would be ok with it. but reality is cruel sometimes. mr. h went ahead and shaved it off for me. how hard that must have been for him. but he did it so that i could be in control.

i had told the girls that this was going to happen. i tried to prepare them as best i could. we shaved my hair off while the girls were in school, thinking that would be the least traumatic way for them. looking back, that may not have been the best way. or maybe there really was no right way to prepare them for it. bethany was so upset, she cried a lot and needed to talk about it. kelley may have been too, but she kept it to herself out of respect for my feelings i believe, i admire her bravery. such strong little girls-they were only 6 and 7 1/2 at the time. bethany has beautiful natural curls...that she did not get from me. i told her that maybe God would let my hair grow back in beautiful curls like hers. well, that seemed to offer her even the tiniest bit of comfort. and for the next several months she prayed and prayed to God about that.

i didn't dare go to their school once i lost my hair. but her class found out that i had lost my hair. maybe she told them or maybe the teacher discussed it, i'm still not sure how they found out. they made fun of her, well no, they made fun of me. it broke her heart that the kids were so mean about her mommy. it broke my heart that children could be so mean to my baby and that i had caused her such anguish. she was sad and embarrassed. i didn't blame her as i felt the same way.

everywhere in public that we went while i had my head covering on, bethany would announce to anyone who listened-why i looked the way i did. around the house if i took off my covering because it was uncomfortable, she would ask me to put it back on and i always did. mr. h and kelley would tell her to not announce my cancer in public or to not ask me to cover up. but i thought it was ok. anyway to help her deal with it. mr. h would lovingly rub my head every day. he did this for months, every single day continuing when fuzz appeared and even until i had grown quite a bit of hair. he also shaved his hair off when he shaved mine. we were bald together. and throughout my growing-out process he made sure his hair was always cut shorter than mine.

during the second month of my chemotherapy, i had to have heart surgery. well surgery to cut a "window" into the lining around my heart to allow fluid to drain out. the cancer mass was compressing my heart and caused my heart to start drowning in fluid. as the tech rolled me into the operating suites he had to have me take off my head covering, it wasn't sterile. i was mortified at the thought of being taken anywhere bald. the guy was so nice, he went into the OR suites and came back with one of those blue surgical caps that looks like a paper shower cap. the type that all of the surgical employees wore. that way i would fit in and not be left with my baldness.

after chemotherapy was completed, my hair started growing back as patchy fuzz. it didn't look very promising. it had no color other than some sort of a very light metal shade. it took several tries with hair dye to first get it to take the color and then to find a color that didn't look ridiculous. i was finally satisfied when i got it to a dark brown. i got my first haircut six months after the first fuzz appeared. just a trim that transformed my uneven purposeless style into a "pixie" cut. with a bit of hair product and finger styling it actually looked like i wore my hair that way on purpose.

and my hair continued to grow. two things were interesting...it stopped growing in as that awful colorless metal shade and started growing in the same color i had dyed it-which was not my original color. and it came back curly! bethany was so thrilled that God had answered her prayers! i was too!

the picture in my profile was taken a really long time ago. i've not had it cut since the pixie trim. it is long! and curly! and so much better than what i started with. i do need to get it trimmed and reshaped sometime soon, i think.

what a journey it was. i have a hard time remembering what i looked like with no hair. though i took many quick glances in the mirror during my baldness. i didn't want to look, but i couldn't stop looking. we have a couple pictures of me during that time with a head covering on of some sort. and some early hair growth progress pictures that only show a portion of my head. but there are none of "me" bald. the wig never got worn much, once when i met some online friends for the first time and anytime we went somewhere that the girl's classmates and friends might see us all together. it was uncomfortable to wear especially during summer in florida.

i still remember waking up each morning after dreams of having a head full of hair, thinking that the baldness was nothing more than a bad dream. then reaching up and touching my head feeling nothing but baldness. realizing that it wasn't a bad dream after all. day after day. i thought it would never grow back. that regrowing my hair would be the worst post cancer problem-which it definitely wasn't by a long shot. now it seems that it grew back so quickly, though then it felt like an eternity. the experience of cancer has changed me forever. and the experience of baldness has also changed me forever.

i now cringe whenever someone says in response to a person's bad haircut or when a child cuts their own hair and the parent is mortified (which bethany did do as a preschooler)..."it's just hair, it'll grow back". yes it does grow back, but those words have a whole new meaning to me now.

my biggest post cancer fear? of course it's that my cancer will return...but i think it's the baldness that i am the most dreadful of. maybe that's vain of me. thinking back to not having my hair, my "crown", it was hard. regardless of how baby fine it was or the cowlicks or the way it was straight everywhere except for one spot in the back that insisted on waving, i missed it terribly. i regained my hair and was blessed with a greater degree of beauty and i am so very thankful for that. sometimes i start to get annoyed when it falls into my face or when i have a lot of tangles to brush out. at those times i give myself a good silent scolding, because i am so happy to have my hair back.

when i lost mine, both girls, but especially bethany, had their hair cut into much shorter styles. bethany's curls have since grown out and it is so very long and pretty. she isn't growing it out to keep it though, she is growing it out to donate to locks of love or another organization like that. i'm not sure how long hair needs to be for a donation, but when i take her to get hers cut-i may get that much needed trim and cut mine for a donation as well. we can do it together.

with all of this rambling about my hair, i probably owe you all a picture of it as it is now. i really, really don't like to be on that side of the camera. however, i will try to get a good picture of my hair to share sometime soon.

thank you all for allowing me to share my forlorn but in the end triumphant tale of my hair.

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bullet thursday

>> Thursday, January 28, 2010

  • wondering if i ran everyone off with my whole depressive, healthcare ramblings?
  • hoping not...i'm over it for now. just had to let it out.
  • i did watch the state of the union address.
  • seeing rahm emanuel was my favorite part.
  • tomorrow is the last day to sign the girls up for spring softball. each day of sign ups has fallen at a time that i wasn't able to go. must.make.it.tomorrow.
  • report cards came out...two good ones! well one "C", but we didn't make a big deal out of that-pretty sure it's already up to a "B" now. a good number of "A's" for both!
  • bethany's big birthday surprise was tickets to go see taylor swift in concert...she was so thrilled she had tears of pure joy in her eyes! and so did i...
  • she didn't acquire her taste for country music from me...just sayin'.
  • i do however find myself liking taylor swift.
  • on a slightly controversial note, a while back a blogger made a comment about aging-that it was a sign of our sin from God, growing older and all. sounded a little *out there* for me.
  • today i feel my age and then some, and i may or may not agree with the above bullet at this point. all i know is-it's not good.
  • nothing in my medication arsenal is working. ugh.
  • moving on again...
  • i'm convinced the kittens are some sort of "mini" cats. they are over 9 months old and other than chubby bellies, they are so tiny. still like kittens. their mama was just a kitten herself.
  • no more homes have been found, but i haven't been looking. maybe next week.
  • i keep saying that a lot..."maybe next week".
  • i came across some not so flattering old school photos of myself on facebook. thank goodness the poster didn't tag them. it was from my time at boarding school and i had put on some weight...i looked like a darn tank.
  • luckily i lost that weight over the following summer before i started my new school.
  • i do love looking at the old photos though...just not "fat" ones.
  • still no new pics to share, i think our desktop was disconnected during our satellite tv installation-part of a package deal. and i only know how to upload photos a certain way.
  • yes, i am very much a creature of habit.
  • plus chemobrain causes me to not function as well on the technical stuff. when i ask mr. h for "how to's" his reply is always "RTFM!". i do, and it might as well be written in a foreign language.
  • "RTFM" must be an army saying, i can't tell you what it means without using a word that i save only for special occasions. let's just say it has something to do with reading the manual.
  • it's a bit chilly here in florida. i like it, but i don't tolerate it very well. this doesn't give me much credibility when i complain i want to live where there are 4 seasons. i'm pretty sure floridian cold is different than northern cold. i've heard about it before, something about the moisture.
  • i still think i'd be ok up north. i could get one of those north face puffer coats that goes down to my ankles. and i have uggs now (got 'em at a huge discount) and a pair of emu's that are just like uggs (another huge discount). they look kind of silly in the tropics. so see, moving would have a purpose!

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happy birthday to our bethany boo!

>> Friday, January 22, 2010



tonight i tucked my 8 year old in to bed for the last time...



and now it's my baby's birthday! at 5:11 this morning bethany will officially be 9. NINE. i can't hardly believe it.

here are some highlights of bethany's world right now...

  • her current goal is growing out her beautiful curls to donate to locks of love.


  • she's in the 3rd grade and is doing great! i think she is taking after me and is a spelling bee. and her favorite educational activity is writing-stories, essays and songs.


  • outside you would see her whizzing by on her new electric scooter that she got from papa for christmas. planning on re-starting her in gymnastics soon and playing spring softball .


  • she likes a good steak, spaghetti and ice cream.


  • she is a loyal member of "team edward", but hasn't seen new moon yet-still i don't think she'll change her loyalty.


  • her current music faves are taylor swift and soulja boy and favorite tv show is icarly. but would really like to have her *own* tv show and definitely has the personality for it!


  • has a very original and eclectic fashion sense. favorite colors are pink and black.


  • she is a proud mommy to her kitten, julian.




  • tonight we'll be having dinner at olive garden per bethany's request (she especially wants the gelato dessert...yum!) and a couple gifts to open. on saturday we will have her official party. we are all very excited about a certain gift she's getting! i can't share the secret yet...but it is awesome and we hope she will be thrilled! i'm sure she will be!

    for last year's birthday, i posted photos over the years in the life of bethany ashlyn and you can take a walk down memory lane by clicking *here*

    i'm sure we'll have lots to share of the big day and let you all know about the super secret gift soon!

    happy 9th birthday bethany ashlyn...we love you!

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    i have got to stop slacking...(and whoa do i foresee trouble)

    >> Saturday, December 12, 2009

    seriously. i mean i am a total slacker about lots of things-and i'm ok with that. one thing i've been pretty good at though is capturing moments with the camera. yep, i usually take pictures aplenty. i don't make those cute scrapbooks, that would be way too much work. thanks to mammie, kelley and bethany do have their own photo albums. though with the digital age i'm lucky to get prints made. in fact the summer i was sick i actually caught up with five years of pictures into each album. lately though i just plain suck. even when i manage to take pictures i haven't blogged them, uploaded to facebook, nothing. if i don't change my ways, the next current pictures you all see may be when the girls are teenagers. (oh holey crow, one day we're going to have two teenage daughters...at the same time!)

    so really i need to get busy. for example i mentioned my complete lack of recording kelley's concert last night. and there was no excuse! i even have one of those flip video camera thingies. well i haven't opened it and figured it out yet. see? slacker.

    what has me thinking of this now though is bethany. i can't tell you how many times i gaze at that child and try to figure out how i helped create her! forgive me for this, but you all will understand...cause aren't all of our children just gorgeous? yes they are. bethany. wow. long naturally curly hair, big blue eyes and teeny tiny. not a freckle on her face. really i'm thinking mr. heather gets A LOT of credit here. and she has this style about her. when i was her age, picture chubby, freckles, ugly dresses from kmart (sorry mammie and papa), and likely a kinky poodle curl perm. not to leave kelley out, because she is way too pretty for me to not be wowed when i get to claim helping create her as well. each day they are growing more and more into these cute little sassy girls. and i'm so *proud* to be their mommy.

    so bethany today... gosh i wished i had snapped a picture of her before she left today with her papa. a cute little skort outfit which she was all legs in. a snow cap (yes in florida) perched perfectly on her head of curls. pink clogs. i'm just giggling now thinking about how darn cute she looked! and kicking myself for being such a slacker. fortunately she puts together these cute little outfits all the time so i will take some pictures someday soon. and of kelley, too. kelley's style is a bit more sophisticated and she's got a cute new haircut.

    and back to that teenager thing? mr. heather and i are going to be in so much trouble!

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    Super Snapshot Saturday errr Sunday!

    >> Sunday, November 15, 2009

    yesterday i missed Angel's Super Snapshot Saturday. this week her theme was funny. a lot of our funnier pictures have been shared already, so i had to look back at some oldies. to check out other funny pictures or to join in click the button below!




    here's a cute, innocent bathtime photo of bethany that i took. but look closely...notice her ears? it appears that a baby alligator is crawling through her head. thanks a lot daddy. (i think it is funny, but at the time bethany did NOT. not sure what she'll say now-it's been a few years).



    and this is what happens when you keep a puggy princess up too late past her bedtime. daisy is looking pretty rough, but it sure makes me giggle! also daisy is not a morning pug. she sleeps in late. i guess she needs her beauty rest!

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    short answers

    >> Tuesday, November 10, 2009

    i saw this idea on the kahrs 6 pack blog and thought i'd give it a try! click on the short answers button to participate or read other answers. the deal is every tuesday there will be 5 random questions to ask your kids. and as every mommy knows...you never know what's going to come out of those sweet little mouths.




    bethany (b) age 8 1/2 and kelley (k) age 10 are sharing their answers. i didn't ask them together, so i'd get answers that were original. this should be interesting and funny!

    what's better, butter or cheese?

    b-butter, because it's yummy on bread.

    k-cheese, because it goes good on mac and cheese.

    how are doughnuts made?

    b-well, they are made by dough and different jellies sometimes. and they are made with duh, duh-duh, duuuhh...glaze!

    k-uh, i'm thinking. they're made with dough, put in a mold shaped like a doughnut and filled with different fillings and toppings.

    why do trees change colors in the fall? (keep in mind we live in florida and have palm trees. those darn things never change colors)

    b-because it gets cold.

    k-because the weather gets colder and it makes the leaves get dead.

    what do broccoli, carrots and cucumbers all have in common?

    b-they all have green-ness on them, they are all vegetables and they all taste disgusting. (but bethany, carrots are orange. well they still have green-ness on top before you cut it off)

    k-they're all icky and supposed to be healthy. animals love them, but i don't.

    what's a tapestry?

    b-um, why do you type everything i say? why? i have no idea whatsoever.

    k-a tapestry? a place where they tap on people? or make tape?

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    NaBloPoMo Day 9...Bullet Style

    >> Monday, November 9, 2009

    • today has been an off day and has left me low on inspiration, ergo the bullets.

    • mondays are my "sleep in" day. some may think i sleep in every day but i don't. the other six days i set an alarm, on mondays i don't.
    • i'll just say that i slept in way too late, even for me, so for normal people i slept in ridiculously late.

    • hence the off day.

    • i told y'all about kelley's report card, which if you don't remember, was excellent!

    • but also mentioned some apprehension about bethany's. her progress report was not great. i don't even think i could say it was good. it was bad enough that she had many restrictions for the remainder of the grading period.

    • i am so excited to report that bethany's report card was pretty darn awesome!

    • bethany doesn't work up to her potential, but she does have the potential.

    • a pleasant surprise was that her teacher gave a good report about bethany's behavior! she's not a bad kid, but she's bethany, and that can be challenging. despite the sometimes hard times i wouldn't ever want her to change who she is. but with this comes the chance of bad behavior reports.

    • mr. h has been preparing for something the past year or so. he calls it "disaster preparedness"...natural disaster, economic collapse, civil unrest and don't tell him i told you this, zombie attacks.

    • he stockpiles. we have a lot of various things stockpiled. which is great except our house is small and already cramped.

    • i think if he was really clever he could build an underground bomb shelter. if nothing else it would be a good place to store his stockpiles.

    • his current quest is to find long shelf-life ways to store food. currently, he is playing with his new food dehydrator.

    • if a crisis ever happens, feel free to come on over!

    • moving along...i still haven't found any homes for the kittens.

    • one friend is interested in a cat to rid her barn of vermin. we are actually thinking that instead of the kittens, (in)vader may be a good match. he has claws (extra ones too-remember he's a hemingway. sort of). and lately he has been trying to get outside with every opportunity he finds. he would have to give up the luxuries of air conditioning and couches, etc. but we are considering this option.

    • ferris and theo are really encouraging this. (in)vader is so sweet, except to them.

    • i'm thrilled to hear the news that it seems stellan's heart ablation was a success!

    • my prayers will continue, asking our Lord to make this success everlasting.

    • and that sums up my thoughts on this off day.

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    the vampires were out on halloween!

    >> Sunday, November 8, 2009

    now that vampires are slowly being accepted into our society, we were lucky enough to sneak a peek of a couple on halloween.



    it was definitely a sight to see. i was a bit creeped out.




    from the looks of their mouths, it appeared that they had fed recently.



    but not to take any chances, i wore a garlic clove necklace.



    just to be safe.

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    Super Snapshot Saturday

    >> Saturday, November 7, 2009

    it's time for super snapshot saturday hosted by angel! check out her blog to see great snapshots and to learn how to participate by clicking on the button below. easy peasy!




    this week's theme is our choice, so i thought i'd go through photobucket and find some oldies but goodies to share. as i go through photobucket, i can already tell you it's going to be so hard to choose!

    silly bunny girls...look at how little they are! (notice bethany's haircut? i can only say that it didn't happen on my watch, ahem)




    kelley and me celebrating our birthdays 6th and 31st i think.



    bethany the birthday princess.



    kelley holding a baby gator.



    bethany showing off her new earrings.



    one of a very few "family" shots.



    beautiful flower shot created by my friend cindy.



    sweet sisters, the BFF's i want them to be.



    mr. h looking dangerous.



    my "first" haircut after cancer.



    mammie, kelley and bethany riding the teacups at disney world.



    bethany doing what she does best-making us laugh.



    what a sweet walk down memory lane!

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    siblings...the best laid plans

    >> Thursday, November 5, 2009

    do you have siblings? were you close with them while growing up? how about now?

    me? i'm an only child. as a kid i hated it. it took me many, many hopeful years to realize that brothers and sisters just weren't going to happen. i still am sad about not having a sibling. it was lonely then and it is still lonely now.

    being an only child certainly did come with benefits. there was only one of me, so things stretched a little further and i didn't go without. in fact, i usually ended up with the things i wanted. (there are a few things i didn't get that are now inside family jokes). i did get my dream car for my 16th birthday. fortunately my dream car was an old one and less expensive than other cars. if i had wanted a bmw or something like that, i would have been out of luck. my parents felt strongly about being able to send me to college. they both had to work their way through college on their own. had i chosen a traditional wedding, i'm really sure they would have made it a beautiful occasion. so it seems that when they decided to just have me, their life experiences played a big part in it. they wanted to offer me so much opportunity and they did. (thanks mom and dad i love you both so much!)

    but at the other end i was the only one with which things were judged. meaning, my parents at a time, thought i was on "the highway to hell". i think that they now maybe realize i was just a normal kid/teen. they just had nothing to compare me against. and really i ended up turning out ok.

    my friends all had siblings. and one of my bestest of friends was the middle of three daughters. ever have one of those friends that seemed perfect, the whole family seemed perfect, and you really wanted to be part of that family? yep, that's how i viewed them. i'm really lucky and happy that even now after all of these years, i'm in touch with all three sisters. i know they've had their bumps along the way. but to me they will always be the "perfect family".

    fast forward to my family. i definitely wanted three kids, girls, that were fairly close in age. i admit it, i wanted my family to resemble the family of my friend. kelley and bethany are close in age (18 months apart). my hope for them was that they would be instant BFF's. i'll admit that even after all these years (the girls are almost 9 and 10 1/2) i have baby fever like there's been a rabid outbreak. however, having another is not likely to happen. mr. h is just not on board with that idea.

    so back to siblings. kelley and bethany. close in age, both girls, the best of friends. right? no. wrong. at best this only lasted through the preschool age when they called each other "sissy" for sister. sometime after that it became a love/hate relationship which it remains to this day. we have issues that i never even dreamed of. not quite to the point of wearing each others clothes without permission, but we're getting there. right now the biggest quarrel involves friends. "but she was my friend first!". if i had a dollar for every time i've heard that...

    i do anticipate (hope) that this will change next year. this will be the first time in four years that they will be attending different schools, different busses (and if they had their way, living in different states). we also are anticipating the possibility for them to have their own rooms in the coming future. yes, maybe this will all help.

    remember the stories of our grandparents and great-grandparents "when i was your age, i had to walk ten miles to school, uphill, in snow, with hand me down shoes"? here it sounds more like "when i was your age, i didn't have a sister to play with and be friends with. it was lonely. when i played board games, i had to play the left hand against the right hand"!

    *sigh* if only they realized how nice it could be to have each other...


    My Stick Family from WiddlyTinks.com


    p.s. remember "little baby girl" is only part of my dream family. no, i'm not trying to tell you all any news. =)

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    Super Snapshot Saturday (oops a day late!)

    >> Sunday, November 1, 2009

    my bloggy friend angel hosts this blog carnival every saturday. be sure to check out her blog for more super snapshots!




    this theme was holidays. yesterday was a holiday which is why i'm a day late. instead of sharing those pictures now, i thought it would be a great time to share some of my favorites from Christmas over the years. can you believe it's time to start thinking Christmas? i've already started shopping!

    i would love to scan all of our pictures with santa, but not because they are great pictures...it's because they are not great pictures! our santa pictures never fail to bring a laugh because of kelley and bethany and their expressions. i've wondered if they save these special expressions over the year especially for santa? here is their first picture with santa and it is the most normal of them all. bethany is obviously not happy, but the tears in her eyes are kind of sweet.




    this winter wonderland is my favorite holiday picture of all time! my friend cindy helped create this for our Christmas cards a few years ago. she really brought magic to a picture that was originally taken on a hot and sunny afternoon in florida!

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    i guess you could call us quiverfull

    >> Saturday, October 31, 2009

    ***this blog post has been sitting unpublished for several days now mostly waiting for pictures to be added. but also because i'm trying to anticipate the reaction this will get. my intention? just a cute little (or big) history of why i could very well end up as "the old lady with the cats". the situation we have right now is not ideal. and i hope that it is very much temporary! also this is in no way meant to offend large families. i am not the product of one, even though having siblings and a large family have been life long desires of mine. and we are not in the situation to have many more children, for several reasons. one? you will soon see!***

    i'd never heard of the term "quiverfull" until the duggar family became popular. and even then i wasn't quite sure of the exact meaning so i glanced at wikipedia. according to the first little blurb it says that "children should be received eagerly as blessings from God". and i definitely do agree with that. but ok it's true we don't have a quiverfull of children. and although i really do want a "large" family, to me that means three or four children. not exactly very duggar-esque.

    however, i also view animals as blessings from God too! sometimes i prefer them to humans as they never lie or cheat. pets just warm my heart and make me smile because they are true, pure and full of love. i definitely believe the studies that say pets are good for you. ever been comforted by puppy kisses or kitty purrs? now i won't say that my pets never get grumpy, they do! especially theo who often walks around the house complaining about this whole quiverfull mentality i seem to have. which i guess i should explain.

    i've always been an animal lover. my dad says i've adopted strays my whole life (though he actually has included some people as strays too, but that's a whole other story), and i have rescued many, many strays in my lifetime. some i've kept as my own pets and some like a few litters of kittens i've rescued from the elements i've worked hard to find them good homes. this is no easy task. all in all, i've always had pets. and for a few years it was surprising because i had only one pet, ferris. he's my 16 year old best buddy, a manx cat that i adopted from animal control when he was only 5 weeks old. i say my best buddy because he is! he's been with me for my entire adult life, all the ups and downs, growing, maturing, college, working, boyfriends, marriage, kids, sickness, etc. not to mention all of the pets and strays that have come and gone. ferris has seen it all!



    about four years ago or so theo joined us. a little kitten in the yard who was hungry and getting wet when it started to rain. of course we brought him in. he quickly bonded with mr. h and became "his" cat named theo. (the bonding could explain the grumpies theo is prone to). for the next few years it was just the two cat guys.



    kelley did have a puppy from the humane society for a little while, but no matter what we did bethany was terrified of him. and like lots of "mutts" he got pretty big which made bethany even more scared. fortunately he found another good home. we had a few hamsters who were quite sweet but they are now running on the big hamster wheel in the sky.

    kelley still desperately wanted a puppy. she first asked when she was just 2. on her eighth birthday she got daisy, who we all adore and is the "pug princess". i have to brag about daisy...puppies to me are A LOT of work. i've had one who seriously was more of a challenge than a newborn! not daisy though. she was easy to housetrain. she went through a flip flop chewing phase but even that passed quickly. so i don't know if it's daisy or pugs in general. i just know that our princess is the best.dog.ever. the boys-ferris and theo didn't mind her at all. we then became a nice little family with not too many pets. nice and normal.



    last december we acquired another cat. he belonged to a patient of mr. h's who had passed away. the family said that mr. h was the man's favorite nurse and asked if we would like to have the cat. (i have to mention that i was always interested in hemingway cats-the ones with extra digits that are often found in key west at ernest hemingway's estate. and it turns out that this cat had extra digits though i'm not sure if he is a hemingway cat-he actually has six digits on all but one paw and seven on the other! and a few other oddities...also a manx and has the strangest ears i've ever seen-they are curled. he's really a sight to see!). so vader came to home to stay. we didn't name him, i'm not sure if it's from darth vader or not. but according to ferris and theo it is short for IN-vader. yep, after all that ferris has tolerated he drew the line with vader. theo doesn't like him and the grumpies have gotten worse. the feeling is mutual, vader doesn't like them either. but to us and even daisy he is completely lovey-dovey.



    ok so now we're getting a bit packed. our house is small-it was my "batchelorette pad". we don't have a farm and really i'm a pretty big believer that house cats belong in the house. but everybody claims "their" spot and it works out. sort of. but we're not at quiverfull yet, not anywhere close!

    have you ever told your children something that has come back to get you? well, i sure have. kelley and bethany often mentioned that they would like a turtle. i love turtles as well. and i told the girls that if they ever found a turtle that was in trouble they could bring it home. after clarifying that the huge tortoises that they see from time to time were not included, i figured this would never happen. right? nope! not in my life. the girls rescued an itty bitty tortoise that was about to be eaten by a friend's dog. of course! so they brought the little thing home and true to my word, we kept it. we never did see any "missing" signs, so for now alex or speedy (nobody can stick with one name) resides with us.



    it's here that i have to mention that i've always adored orange cats. never had one though. since i've brought this up, i'm sure you realize that is all about to change. oh dear has it changed! my parents noticed a very small orange cat hanging around their yard. she was probably still even a kitten, as much as she could be. and then her belly started to grow, and grow. oh no! she couldn't be pregnant could she? she was much too young. then her big belly was gone. we figured she miscarried the babies. my parent's neighbor had been trying to catch the cat to keep, but they were unsuccessful and ended up moving. some time later that's when we saw kittens, they had survived. five, adorable, tiny, orange kittens! and some time after that the neighbors came back and the mom cat was gone. we guessed that they finally got her, which was great! except for the babies left behind. i guess they didn't realize that she had babies.



    this was no problem for me. my resume boasts several litters of kittens that i rescued and found homes for. so that's exactly what i was going to do. except wow, they weren't too friendly or brave. i had to go back and forth many times to catch them all. and i did get all of them except for one. meanwhile back at home we had four little guys (yep all boys) sequestered. they were not at all happy. first order of business was getting rid of fleas and other gross things that wild kittens get. yuck. but we got rid of those. then the challenge of eating, they were very young and i believe still nursing when their mom disappeared. got them eating. they took right to the litterbox. so it was then all about teaching them that we weren't going to eat them and that we were nice. this was a slow process. it was sad though, as we knew there was one kitten left and how scary for that kitten-lost mommy and brothers. i tried and tried to get that kitten. and i failed. my mom however (with my dad's advice) got her! yes she was the only girl. she was terrified, but reuniting with her brothers was so sweet!



    now of course the plan was that after we got them socialized a bit that i was going to find homes for them. that would be easy, they are adorable! bethany did bond with one she named julian and since she didn't have her "own" pet like the rest of us, i figured what the heck-we'll let her keep her julian. the rest got names too. gabriel, eli, lexi and, and, well the last one we can't decide on a name for. he's the only one who isn't orange. he's a beautiful cream sort of color that i've never seen before, with dark rusty colored eyes. kelley named him cream puff. mr. h really likes the little guy and named him spooky. and though we call him all of those names, he's most often called pooky. lexi, the only girl and last to join us, is super shy. really shy. in fact after months she is just now comfortable and friendly. poor thing really had a hard time. she's super sweet now and very spoiled.



    you may have noticed that i said "months" and that is no mistake. remember how i was easily going to find all of these kittens homes? well, it's not been easy. i have found not one home. not a one! we have mostly tried word of mouth. after it became clear that wasn't going to work i called the humane society. not what i wanted to do, but i had to do something. well that was a bust too. they didn't exactly say no they won't take the kittens. but they did tell me that they had so many kittens and cats that they were completely overloaded and not having any luck with adoptions. my heart sank. so i asked for suggestions and mentioned placing an ad in the paper. they told me not to do that because cruel people tend to answer ads for free kittens and do all sorts of awful things to them-using them as lab animals, satanic rituals or just all around horrible things. oh.my.gosh. by the time i hung up i was on the verge of tears. i just can't imagine these sweet babies being hurt. i refuse to call animal control as i've read too many articles in the paper about their adoption vs. put down ratios. i've called the vets in town. and i've even called animal rescue places out of town. so right now i'm stuck. we're stuck. if you get nothing else out of this long, rambling story of mine-please get this: spay and neuter your pets!



    so now we are officially a quiverfull family. it's going ok. the girls think it's the coolest thing ever. daisy doesn't mind them at all. ferris has seen it all, nothing phases him. theo is grumpy and often heard saying all sorts of bad words in cat language-which is kind of cute. vader, poor vader. well he doesn't care for the grown cats at all but i do believe that he feels like he is in charge of the kittens. a surrogate mom maybe? he herds them around, bathes them, it's all very sweet. but i can tell that like any "mom" with five kids he is absolutely worn out. i try to tell him that he doesn't have to be in charge of them but he doesn't seem to understand that. mr. h grumbles about them half of the time and then spoils them the other half.





    recently all of the kittens received their vaccinations and were spayed/neutered. wow! that whole thing cost a small fortune. ha-ha maybe i need to set up a "donate" button! but of course it was the necessary thing to do. my hope is that the kittens will be more appealing to people if all of the vet stuff is taken care of already. atleast i tell myself that. we are keeping the makers of kitten and cat chow and cat litter in business. and if only i got paid for my manual labor of litterbox duty...

    sometimes there's a lot of work and it can sure be tough...



    but the good news is that every once in awhile an unusual friendship is made.







    and there's always a laugh to be had!



    so there you have it, we are quiverfull!

    would anyone like a kitten?

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    some past funnies

    >> Tuesday, October 27, 2009

    blogging is really starting to take some time. i have a few posts that i've been working on for several days now. in the meantime, i came across some funnies from my caring bridge journal and thought i'd share them. these little jewels were from 2007. kids really do crack me up!

    ***

    So Kelley thought she'd be slick and write an answer to a test on her shoe. It didn't all fit so she abbreviated it. She must've thought she was just too smart to actually come up with something like that. Unfortunately, she couldn't remember what the abbreviation stood for and she missed the question anyway. It was a good laugh!

    (i have saved the shoe and here it is...)



    ***

    dinner time conversation...

    Picky Kelley who does not eat meat is trying steak for the first time.

    Bethany: "Hey Kelley did you know steak comes from cows? You're tasting cows. Dead ones!"

    ***

    and a cute little picture of part of our "crew". one of the posts i'm working on is telling this story...



    hope this post gave you a giggle. and stayed tuned for new posts...including awards!!!

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    technical difficulties...

    >> Friday, January 23, 2009

    i added pictures of bethany in her birthday post and somehow i see they got lost in cyber world. so, i'll try again with pictures of my beautiful little girl and maybe even some stories of the quirky life she lives.

    the earliest digital picture we have. you can't tell here but bethany's nose was crooked. we think it happened when she landed on the bed during delivery. i was so upset! but with lots of massage, we managed to get her nose straightened up.



    sweet little baby...



    always a gabby girl!



    budding canvas or make up artist?



    isn't her hair beautiful? just wait...



    nice haircut, no? it did NOT happen on my watch and that's all i'm going to say about that.



    check out the ears! she begged for several years before we said yes.



    this hurts me just looking at it, but it captures the goofy essence so well...



    bethany is one of THOSE girls...natural curls, big blue eyes, and can eat like a horse and not gain an ounce. how on earth did i help create that? i am definitely a proud mama!

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